The Domino Effect

I have had a weird, and oddly uplifting week. Certain movement has been made on the professional front, that has led to some movement on a long-cherished personal plan as well. Emboldened by this, and resulting from some weird emotional domino effect, I have taken an enormous chance. This is a giant Hail Mary. It's a penalty kick in over time with the scores tied. I have taken it, and I am really rather certain of failure. However, I am pleased with the fact that I have taken the shot at all. 2012 has been uneven so far, and it seems appropriate that some success should be tempered with failure, but I am gratified by the following truth: Success or failure, both will lead to personal growth. That is nothing to scoff at.

Crashing Into Reality

All that uncharacteristic optimism I was raving about just a couple of days ago? Gone. Dead and gone. 

I mean, I don't know what else I was expecting. This is me, after all. How long could I possibly sustain a good mood? And how would it even work, when I am constantly surrounded by human beings, with their infinite capacity to irritate, disappoint and fail? In the past two days, I have gone back on a decision to tell someone how I feel about them (due, in part, to their behaviour towards me), I have become deeply annoyed with two close friends, and I have felt slighted by one of the aforementioned two in favour of someone I don't really like anymore. 

So, here's the thing about things, however high you jump, however much you soar, you will always come back down, crashing into reality. Here endeth my self-pitying rant.

All Will Be Well

I understand that title is uncharacteristically optimistic. That's how I feel this morning, uncharacteristically optimistic. It's the start of another year. 2011 was an interesting year for me. Professionally, there were numerous highs. There was a new confidence in my abilities and my chosen career path. Personally, there have been many new journeys that were undertaken. Some of those journeys are yet to be completed. 2011 was the year many of my personal relationships were reaffirmed, and I was able to find joy and completion in the love I feel for many people. And in 2011, I resolved to do a few things in 2012. That's as good or bad a year in the life of an average human can get, I'm thinking. So with that, I leave you with the words of the Gabe Dixon Band, and their song 'All Will Be Well':

All will be well, 

Even after all the promises you've broken to yourself,
All will be well.
You can ask me how but only time will tell.